It is weird to be writing again, i had stopped for a really long time and i dont really know where to start so i am not going to start at anything. I will just simply talk about what will be happing in life and the good things that have happened.

Except for one bad thing, I sprained my ankle again! I am a clutz!

  I start Crafton again on the 8th of March, i am a little nervouse but thats ok, i am looking forward to being there again i have missed that campus very very very much! there could be a little bit of trouble but if i stay away from the cafeteria up to the library i will be ok, my class is a late start class and i decided to try and register about a week ago so this was the only class that i could get into (talk about procrastination) i know that is the one thing that i am best at! but summer is on its way so i will take another class than to.

Things have been going really good in my love life, Kelly and i have been really happy and i hope it will stay that way.

I turned 21 on the 6th of Feb. and i havent had one drink at all, when i tell my best friend Jodi that, she tells me that i am COMPLETLY crazy! but i dont seem to feel that way, i havent wanted to have any at all, so i am just fine with it!

  Have you ever had one day that sticks out in your mind as the one day in your life's history that if you would have said some different than what you had said that your entire life would be complety different, and you would be a complety differnt person than you are today? I have one and only one. and i think about it all the time, it revolves around one other person, who i have always considered very dear to my heart. If i would have said what i really wanted to say things would be sooooo different but i didnt i lied to that person, and there are days that i regret it and days that i dont, deep down i know what i did was the right thing becuase of the way i am now, if that makes any sence, because had i told the truth i might not be all of who i am now...but there is one thing about me that the other person would not have been able to deal with, it would have been to big of a difference for us to work through, but than again i dont kow if i would have dived into it all the way either, but at the same time i am glad that i have dived into it so i would not want to change that not that i want to change anything now....i think i am confusing myself.

ok so as far as my animals things have grown a lot! i now have 5 dogs and old english sheep dog, a poodle, a chiuhauha, and my old polmeranian, and kellys dog a husky/german shephard mix and i have added another cat the the two that i had. so total i have over 15 different animals! just call my house the zoo!

So i am wanting to move out of state anywhere but California, we have been thinking maybe Oregon or Colorado, or even Wyoming. if things go the way we think we they will we could be outta here in just a little over a year.

ok well my ankle is freaking hurting...so i am outta here  

well today (10/28/2004) was a fun day i jst wish my lips were not sooo chapped!!! it BLOODY HURTS!!!

 I took my dog Teddy to get all of his shots and groomed and now he is all groogy i feel so bad for him but i dropped almost 300 dollars on the little rat! just kidding about the rat part.....*wink*

i went down to San Deigo with Kelly again to today to pick up his Bronco from the shop anfd had tacos with his dad, his dad is really a neat guy i really like spending time with him, Kelly has a really neat sister to, suprising that i could find someone with a family that i can get a long with huh? the only person that i ABSOULTY just cant STAND AT ALL is his mom but we dont have to deal with her to much so thats a good thing.

I want to go to disneyland again i havent been for quite a while now and i am missing it!

I dont know if i have ever posted about a guy named John on here before but if i didnt i will now! He is driving me insane and i dont think that he is a balanced person at all, i met him on my Star Wars boards yes thats right Star Wars boards i am a geek all the way, anyway on the jedi Council boards that is, and i have met him twice in person once when my family and i went up to Oregon and than he flew down here for a week of hell! ( he lives in Washington by the way) after the last time he came down i had told him that i had NO desire to have any form of relationship with him (he had really kinda freaked me out the last time he was here) and that i didnt even want to remain friends with him, he reminded me WAY to much of Larry (mistake number 2) and i told him in a very long e-mail all of this and a lot more, well than he tells me that he has been seeing a shrink to help try and figure out what our relationship is......a shrink for goodness sake!!!! and i have nothing against seeing a shrink but over somthing like this?!?!?!?!!?!?!? i think that is a little weird and when i had told him some of the stuff that i havent yet posted on here he just lost it and i mean LOST it, he told me that he hopes that i have a horrible life and that someday i realize what we could of had and what i am giving up and that i just am miserable for the rest of my life, the funny thing about all of this is that we never were together!!!! we didnt have anything but a weird annoying friendship! do men just NOT EVER listen EVER!?!?!?!! (no offence guys) but i mean come one i am going through a divorse and i really dont like Larry for all of the things he has done to me but i have never and would never say anything to that extent of hatefullness, it just struck me as odd considering the situation but oh well i chalk it up to he is just a wacky horribly annoying little whinning boy (cant even put the word man there cuz that term just doest apply) all he did the enire time he was out here was whine at me!!! do all men whine is that just a common thing among guys noaday?!?!? i dont remeber any of my other boyfriends whinning up untill i met larry. I mean even Ryan my drug addict/alcholic (mistake number 1) boyfriend never whinned or if he did i just never paid attention to it. i do have to hand it to all the men that dont whine...keep up the good work!!!! I do know a few that dont whine and i have never heard Kelly whine so thats a really good thing! i think i would have had to smack him around if he did. but now look at me i am whinning! D'OH!!!! But anyway i have decided to just pretend that John doesnt exsist anymore and he is doing the same with me so in the end it all works out! *dances* YEAH!!!!!!

I have just watched again the movie "what dreams may come" and i have to say that i do enjoy the movie i think that maybe the way that the show heaven and hell is a little weird and yet at the same time how do we know that is really all that different from that, the only thing that i struggle with would be that there really is no "Fire and brimstone" and yet again there is a part where they do travel through hell and they go through the part of fire, so maybe they just are inferring that hell has different levels?.....does hell have different levels? does heaven have different levels?.....here are some weird questions that pop in my mind sometimes.

  Ok well now my fingers are tired and my eyes hurt and i have a bad headache and it is 11:48pm (10/28) so i am going to bed    TTFN!

Well a lot has happened lately in my life some for the better and others a little confusing, I am doing better with it all now though, and thank-you Lousie for your prayers i am sure that it has been helping me.

        Well it is snowing here right now, and its heavy, its fairly cool to watch though it has messed up plans of mine for the past two days...grrrrrr...but oh well thats life right?

   Family has been doing well with all of the stuff that has happened around here lately even with all the stress of remodeling the house mom painted our living room green i think it looks pretty good, our upstairs bathroom is cranberry, its looks kind funky but i like it.

  I am no longer going to school, i feel very disapointed in myself for this, another semester that i have dropped out of, at least one of you knows exactly what i am like with this...*cough AJ cough* i dont think i will be going back i wont have the time anymore and now there really isent any point, my life isent really going down that kind of road anymore, and thats ok.

  i have been doing a lot of reading of the late and have been enjoying it very much, for the Christain girl/women out there i strongly recomened the Elsie Dinsmore series there are 12 all together that are written by Martha Finley, they are just AMAZING books i have read them all before but i started over again and now i am on the 6th book....yeah!!!

  i got a new pet...her name is Shadow, and she is a cockatiel (sp?) and she is the sweetest thing in the world! she actaully picked me at the store, it was really cute she came right up to the cage door when i walked by when all of the other birds ran away to the back and she just stood there and was waiting for me to pick her up and then se stepped right on to my hand but than she got kinda scared and started to try and nibble on my hand which tickled cuz i am used to parrots drawing blood from me, but she is soooo sweet she even eats dinner with me.

and speaking of new pets my mom got yet another poodle and she named him Nugget, he is adorable!!!! and the neatest poodle, mom is planning on breeding him with the other two female poodles that she already has, so we have added to our farm

SSSoooo lets see that makes 5 dogs, (3 poodles, 1 polmeranian, 1 golden retriver) 4 birds (1 african gray, 2 senti. parrots, and 1 cockatiel) 1 cat, 2 ball python snakes, 1 svahanna moniter, and 2 fish, and i ferret, and i think that may be it though i think i am forgetting someone. and there on top of all that is the 6 of us. our last name should be Mcdonald....hehehehe....Ol McCoreys had a farm ei ei oh!

ok well i have to go feed the farm so i will post again later....ttfn....ta ta for now!